Dad ?

What is this empty feeling,

I wonder?Emotions coming and going

Just like thunder.

My heart is heavy from the weight it carries.

My soul is shattered from the memories I buried. 

My eyes burn from all the tears it has shed,

Dad....,

My brain is giving me visions of the times I deeply dread. 

I hate my lips, for they didn’t say the words I wanted to tell you.

I didn't even talk properly when I last met you.

I hate myself, I never wanted to fail you.

I hate myself, for not being the person I should’ve been. 

I’m left with nothing besides regret. 

The memory of you will linger 

Through my head,

Until the day I’m dead,